Ditch

Getting done today. I'm pretty sure I'll hate my life by then. Pictures up ASAP. Peace

Praise

Tonight, I was fortunate enough to put my church-skeptisism aside and go to Crossroads with Tony. The reason I say "Fortunate" is because I heard a story that changed my life. The service started out talking about God sending a Baby down for our salvation..The baby ends up dying..and changes (Saves) the whole world..You know what I'm talking about, right? Hopefully you do.

The pastor went on and started to talk about a Woman who was pregnant. When she was about 9 months into her pregnancy, the doctors announced to her that her baby would be stillborn. Obviously the mother is devastated (who wouldn't be?). The mother ends up getting together many people and prays for the Baby. Two months later, the Baby was born..however, it still had many problems with it that wouldn't allow it to live for more than a few hours.

The mother spent and charished the time that she had with her baby. About 3 hours later, the baby passed away.

Instead of being upset, the mother praised God for giving her time with the baby. This baby actually changed the lives of many, many, many people..

I just think it's beautiful how someone can look at a tragedy and be soo strong, and turn it into a testimony that has brought others closer with God.

I'm not good at summarizing things like this at all...I just hope that anyone that reads this will understand to either be thankful for what they have, or believe in Gods will, even though sometimes we may ponder it.

If I find a link with the mothers letter, or an overall more specific version of what I typed I'll be sure to post it.

Praise Him.

I Feel

Completely blessed right now. I hadn't been hanging out with people who really share the same beliefs as I do, so I prayed that God would send some fellow believers my way. Sure enough, God showed me that I didn't necessarily need to find "New Friends", but make more of an effort to get in touch with people I haven't had the chance to be around for a long time. For awhile I felt like I was all alone. I actually had been attacked for being a "Christian" while the whole entire Prop 8 BS was going on..I didn't even support Prop 8, so I can't see why people would bash me on such an issue. Either way, the things these people said really hurt my feelings.

It feels great to be around my friends again..I feel like I can discuss anything that's on my mind, which is great because I've been bottling up a lot lately.

Sushi today was great..I can't wait for Thanksgiving tomorrow, and hopefully vegan food with Tony on friday.

I'm soo thankfull for how far I've come (in life and especially with my walk with God). Thank you Lord.

Jobless

Wow..I just typed a bunch of stuff and clicked "Publish Post" and the page said "We're sorry but we're unable to publish your post"...great.

Anyways, I'm going to try to quickly summarize everything I typed before.
I no longer have a job at Target.
Last night was fun.
I hope something else comes up.

First Session

It was about 3 hours or so. Jim has to be one of the nicest people I've ever met, hands down. It felt like it went by super fast..not sure if that's because we were talking the whole time, or if he's just really fast. I didn't plan on having the "Fiend" on my forearm, but I really liked the way the first piece turned out.

I also registered for RCC classes earlier today! Pure Win!

Dude,

Sweet.
My forearm will be covered on Thursday..Soo stoked. I have to apply for RCC this week. Hopefully that'll go well.

It's kind of silly how all these conservative people I know are flipping out over the elections. People shouldn't judge him. He hasn't even started his term..
It's dumb that Prop 8 passed. I honestly didn't think that it would go through. The guy who's the head of "Protect Marriage . COM" should probably burn in hell. I don't like saying stuff like that, but he actually made ALOT of money off of all this turmoil.

It's all really irritating to me, being a liberal.."Follower", because people seem to think "It's all the christians fault". Whilst I don't choose to label myself a "Christian", that still upsets me greatly. It's like saying something idiotic like "All people from the south must be rednecks or in the KKK because they're from the south".

Does that make sense? If you think like that, let me tell you this:
You're going to find idiots in every group or congregation of people. Not everyones the same. Every congregation has 50% assholes and 50% nice people.

And no, I don't believe that..God hates..anyone for that matter. It's only humans that've created this Homophobia/Prejudice BS.
God wouldn't be here holding up signs that says he "Hates Fags"..that's just ludicris.

I'll stop ranting now, but hopefully someone will take into consideration what I just typed.

One Love.

Waiting For The Blackout

Not much is new with me. I got my halloween costume and makeup yesterday. I also got my kitty, Shiva. She's 5 months old and is a total sweetheart.

I finally finished "The Lion, Witch and the Wardrobe". I'm a really slow reader..the movies battle scene was totally different from the books.

Anyways..I'm going to see The Damned and Adolescents tonight @ HOB in Anaheim with Tony. I'm soo excited, it's been forever since I've gone to a show!!

GED

I took my final test yesteday (for Math). I'm praying I passed. If I did then I can start getting things on track.

Jim from Inkaholics got my email. He said he's going to start drawing out all the stuff tonight. I'm freaking excited!

Sorry

I know it's been a few days since I last updated this.
There really hasn't been too much up on my end..
I did, however go out to talk with Jim (from Inkaholics) in Moreno Valley about my sleeve. I was hoping to put some money down on the sleeve, but he told me to wait it off and send him an email with some pictures so he could have a better idea "Visualizing" what I really want. I sent him the email last saturday, and he still hasn't gotten back to me, which is kind of aggrivating because I really, really want to start on this.

Targets been ok. One of the Leads that wasn't really nice to me is transferring, which is good. We've gotten a new one already. I haven't met him yet, but he's fairly new (I guess), so he quiet possibly might be nicer than the last one.
Speaking of my job; I really need to get the 30th and 31st off (well atleast during the daytime). I'm seeing The Damned, and the Adolescents on the 30th in Anaheim (Which should be amazing), and I missed last Halloween due to the flakyness of a "Friend".

I'm taking my GED math test next week.. I'm scared, but I have confidence that I might pass. Hopefully I will. I've been at this for almost a year.
I've got to get ready now.
I'll be back....X

Ups and Downs

I might get fired already from Target. Apparently, I'm "Too Slow" as a Cashier. I don't feel like I'm "Slacking Off", or "Being Lazy", Because It took me about..7 months to get hired somewhere..So why would I not take it seriously.

However, I've met this one Team Leader who's a major A-Hole. I don't even think he's in charge of the cashiers. I seriously can't stand him, and I've actually already reported him for his BS antics. I'm usually pretty easy to get along with, but I won't stand for being treated as if I'm "Worthless" or "Insignificant".

I figure, If I stay at Target, cool. If I get fired, cool, because I won't have to deal with being treated like crap.

It just sucks because I'd be in a struggle again..unless somehow more jobs would suddenly start hiring. The economy is crap right now though, so a lot of jobs hiring doesn't seem like a reality right now.

I'm pissed at my "Friend". My "Friend" gossiped about someone, yet he/she goes and hangs out with this person. I called (let's just say...) "Lucy" out on this once, and she said "Oh, I've only said one thing about him once. He's a great friend, and If you want to argue, then I will seriously humiliate you infront of your friends." .
Funny, isn't it?
"Lucy", does this all the time. It will usually be a weekend when everyones free and wants to chill, but she'll invite this guy over all the time.
I used to be friends with him, but he started acting like a little kid. He actually had this thing, where he would kick me as I would walk. I believe he's 23 or so..

So now I have to try to find something to do. These past few weekends have been crap because of "Lucy".

Word.

ehh

Theres this one guy at Target I Really dislike. Today was too much. If it keeps up then I'm going to start looking for another job. I won't stand to mistreated the way I was today. Hopefully the next paycheck will be better. Last weeks one really sucked.. I had to take out money from my savings to pay my phone bill. Fun stuff. I want to start on my sleeve already, dangit!!!!

I worry too much...

I meant to update my blog on Friday..or Monday, but I just haven't really found time to. This majority of this week wasn't too good. One of Sams (as well as my) friends came over last Saturday and just randomly started talking about "The Large Hadron Collider" and "2012"..I generally don't like talking about Apocolyptic things, whether I believe in what the person is saying or not. I get in long "funks" and get stressed out, worried and very depressed.

I couldn't really get the "Atom Smasher" off my mind at first. The thought of things like that just make me scared..However, I prayed about it and eventually I got it off my mind. My Dad and Grandpa helped me out too. I can honestly talk to those two about anything (It's a shame my Grandpa doesn't really like my Dad).

Let's change the subject for a minute or so. My "Training Day" at Target was so-so (slightly leaning towards..bad), because my car battery died right before I was supposed to go in..Fun stuff. I quickly called the store and told them the deal. They didn't sound too upset (And I really hope they weren't), but it just sucked because it was my first day of..actually being a cashier (even if it was only for about 30-45 minutes). I feel blessed to have gotten nice people in my line. I'm really slow, and I pray that I'll speed up. I'm kind of curious to why I'm not supposed to go back until the 21st though.. I guess it's kind of good in a way, because I can have a little bit more time to get new brake pads (for my car) and hopefully set up my appointment for my sleeve with Jim (from Inkaholics).

Okay, let's change subjects again.

A friend of mine Instant messaged me about an hour ago asking me "How I've been". I told him that the start of my week was lame, but that "I'm feeling better now". I told him that "I shouldn't have been stressing out, about all this "End of the World BS", because no one knows when the world will end." Which is absolutely true. I honestly see the "End" as a mixture between Pollution and the thing's that the Bible pointed out..But then again..we still don't know WHEN it's going to happen. He started talking about a "Comet" that's supposed to hit the earth and poison 3/4's of the water. I've honestly never heard of that. Maybe it's something I missed? (I'm not being sarcastic at all). So all in all, the "Worries" just came back.

I honestly hate talking about it. I mean sure, I might sound selfish when I say "I don't think too many of us have lived out our lives yet", but I know that's how most people would feel. We all have dreams we want to catch, right?

Anyways..I think I'm going to read some "Narnia" then go to sleep. I need to get my sleeping hours back on track.


Ps.

5 Years ago on the 12th, A great great man was called home..This man was Johnny Cash. I wanted to do something in rememberance of him. However, a friend of mine just told me to "Live my Life". That's what I'm trying to do. I can't wait to meet you one day Johnny. Give my Mom and everyone else a high five for me.

Orientation

So today was my first day in Red and Kahki. Orientation freaking sucked..It was waay longer and a lot worse that I thought it was going to be. I guess it's cool I made around $40 today, but it was just soo lame...and I was holding my piss for about 2 1/2 hours. Fun. I go back on Friday. I know one single person there, which is good. Hopefully this won't suck too bad.

1 Week

Until things get better. On another note, I've decided to cut my "Christian" friends out of my life. Why? I'm sick of the fake image they live behind. When is it okay to say "I'm your brother" and "I love you" and "I'll be there for you all the time" and then turn around and totally go against what they say?

What's even worse is that they say "The Bible says that we as humans cannot be depended upon, only God"....Is it me, or is that Blasphemous? Using God to shield yourself because you know that your a selfish asshole..That's really Christian.

Hmm

I got Pokemon Diamond today. It's soo different from the previous Pokemon games..it's ridiculous. I bought my target uniform today as well. I wish that Deep-V necks were easier to find :-/ ... Oh well. Final Fantasy IV has been awesome, but I was an idiot when it came to setting the "Augments" to the "Right" characters, so I kind of screwed some things up :( . I'm going to play some more Diamond. I'll be back later.

Silly Me

I feel pretty stupid. I actually DID get hired from Target! I don't understand why though, because I thought that the interview went bad.

I woke up this morning to a message left from a girl with a nice/friendly voice. She said "Hi, I wanted to talk to you about a position we have for you".. So I called her back and told her I'd be in around 12:00 or so. I had to go to my class first..Nothing new with that.

I went to Target and she went over everything with me..I thought she was going to say they needed someone to gather carts..thank God they didn't need me for that!

I decided to spoil/reward myself right away, and bought a Nintendo DS with Final Fantasy IV.

So far the games been amazing.

Praise God.

..

Met a girl online. Lives in Ohio though. Sucks how a lot of the girls who show interest in me are far away.

Why Even Try?

Deleted. Had a bad week.

Argh.

I've been irritable lately. I wish that the Department of Education would just hand me my GED already. I honestly don't even want to learn math, I'm not even going to use all this complicated BS for anything. All I want to do is become a hairdresser, or fashion designer.. It's just really irritating. The past week has been very crappy. I'm going to pay my phone bill now..

PS: I want a Nintendo DS sooo bad.. I really want to get all the Final Fantasies and Zeldas for it..the Mario games would be sweet too. Interviews this friday at Target..hopefully I'll get hired

Whew!

These past few days have been hella stressfull. I need to relax!!

Hello, All.

This is a blog; a first one, that is. I want to see, how this blog site is, compared to livejournal. LJ can be very complicated (at least for me), and this site seems simple to use. Things have been okay lately. I've just been studying (as always..), and trying to read more. I have an interview at Target in Norco on the 15th. I'm praying I'll get hired there. Targets don't seem to discriminate based on appearences. Hello, more Tattoos!

I was looking at sites that offer guidence in the addiction that I struggle with. A lot came up, but it was all very cliche advice (see a counseler,etc). I hate my addiction. No one knows about it, and I honestly want to keep it to myself (By the way, its not drugs or anything like that). The only reason I'm bringing it up on this site is so that maybe some people could Pray, (or if you don't do that) or wish me luck or something.

I might go read some more of "The Magicians Nephew" right now. That series is Pure Inspiration!