Sitting here alone. Thinking. I just want to get my music going and move out of here. I'm sick of a lot. I need to get closer to God.
My goals as of right now:
1:Get closer to YHWH
2:Improve on my music
3:Improve on my dancing
4:Get a job.
Hope I can accomplish those things.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
Ugh..
I've had a cough for the past two weeks now. I really hope it isn't anything serious. I went to the Dr.'s last Monday, and they gave me some medicine and shots, but this damn thing is still lingering with me. I think I'm going back when I wake up later to just get a check up. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't worried.
And not that this should be an issue at all to me, but I've been talking to a girl who seems super legit..like she isn't like other girls who have talked to me who've screwed me over or anything like that. She's pretty different from me, but it seems like we click. Most people who are similar to me don't even like me anyways. Truth.
And not that this should be an issue at all to me, but I've been talking to a girl who seems super legit..like she isn't like other girls who have talked to me who've screwed me over or anything like that. She's pretty different from me, but it seems like we click. Most people who are similar to me don't even like me anyways. Truth.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Monday, January 25, 2010
Honestly
I've lost a lot of motivation to blog, I'll be honest. I highly doubt anyone reads this other than myself, and I always just seem to blog up on things that I shouldn't even focus on (those things being mostly negative things). It's been quite a long time since I last updated this, and (sadly) nothing has really changed. I'm still jobless, and still struggling with what I want to do with my life. I'll probably start posting more when I actually become something. Until then..
Monday, September 28, 2009
How predactible..
Blown off left and right..even when I'm trying to ask a sincere question. And to think..all the time I wasted typing the blog from yesterday.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Some Great Reward
I really need to start posting on this more.. I guess I just get sidetracked too often. Sometimes I wonder if anyone even looks at this blog..maybe someday it'll be a hot spot! HA!
Obviously, it was still summer when I last posted something here. Well, it's still summer right now technically but I'm no longer on vacation. I'm going to be straight forward and say that I can't stand school (Which I now go to full time. Go me.) and that I'm mainly taking it full time to get financial aid (I need some money in my pocket. Obviously I have to buy books, but I'll still have a bit of cash left over. The only problem is that the idiots screwed up on some stuff, so I'm not getting my check until the end of November..about 3 weeks before fall session ends. Awesome.) and to get braces for cheaper through my Dads insurance..totally looking forward to that..NOT.
I'm currently taking a Bible as Literature class, Voice, Music Theory, Piano and Music Appreciation. I go 4 days every week, but I'm just stuck in class all day on Monday and Wednesday. I'm only in my voice class about an hour and a half on Tuesdays and Wednesdays. I'm pretty stressed about my Bible and Music Theory class..I still haven't even bought the book that's required to do this class. There's some CD in it that you HAVE to have to do the homework..
Okay, enough about school. I feel like I'm boring myself. I met a girl about 2 weeks ago..She's awesome, but I haven't seen her for about a week now =(. I guess I met this chick at a party 4 years ago..I feel pretty bad, but I don't remember her. She never talked to me at this party though, so there's not that much I can do! I usually don't remember small things like parties.
I was really really shy back then anyways, so I would probably be way too scared to even talk to her..I would have especially been shy because she's quite the looker. Seriously! I'm surprised she digs me so much..She must have really bad taste. HA! Just kidding =)
Well, this girl actually found my Myspace and tried adding me..but I didn't add her at first (I DIDN'T deny her, thank goodness) because I didn't even think she'd be into me..She lives like 5 minutes away from me, by the way so It's nothing long distance (we all know how those go..I posted a pretty big blog describing the outcome of one of those). I saw that she was friends with kind of bro-ish dudes, so I just figured "okay, well I seriously don't think she'd be into me..and I'm done talking to random girls on Myspace. It just leads to trouble.)
Well, obviously I was wrong. I asked a few people about her, since she knew some of my friends, and they said she's awesome..So I finally added her, and started talking to her...not right away though; like I said, I didn't think she'd even be into me. Turns out I was wrong AGAIN! To put things in short, we started talking and eventually she gave me her number (SCORE!) and we started texting back and forth (how cliche, right?) She then tells me about how we met years ago, and how she thought I was attractive back then..Too bad I can't even remember where we met..I seriously do feel like I've seen her around before.
About a month ago, I was at Chucky Cheese (I actually remember this) and she said I got "even hotter" since I cut my hair. So, we eventually meet up and hit it off pretty good..I'm trying to take this slow though, because I really care about this girl and don't want to mess anything up. Hopefully I'll see her today. I miss her.
I've noticed that when I talk about women, I just ramble on for days..But this girl is actually awesome though, so I have faith in her =).
I gotta clean up. I'll be back in 2 months. HA!
Obviously, it was still summer when I last posted something here. Well, it's still summer right now technically but I'm no longer on vacation. I'm going to be straight forward and say that I can't stand school (Which I now go to full time. Go me.) and that I'm mainly taking it full time to get financial aid (I need some money in my pocket. Obviously I have to buy books, but I'll still have a bit of cash left over. The only problem is that the idiots screwed up on some stuff, so I'm not getting my check until the end of November..about 3 weeks before fall session ends. Awesome.) and to get braces for cheaper through my Dads insurance..totally looking forward to that..NOT.
I'm currently taking a Bible as Literature class, Voice, Music Theory, Piano and Music Appreciation. I go 4 days every week, but I'm just stuck in class all day on Monday and Wednesday. I'm only in my voice class about an hour and a half on Tuesdays and Wednesdays. I'm pretty stressed about my Bible and Music Theory class..I still haven't even bought the book that's required to do this class. There's some CD in it that you HAVE to have to do the homework..
Okay, enough about school. I feel like I'm boring myself. I met a girl about 2 weeks ago..She's awesome, but I haven't seen her for about a week now =(. I guess I met this chick at a party 4 years ago..I feel pretty bad, but I don't remember her. She never talked to me at this party though, so there's not that much I can do! I usually don't remember small things like parties.
I was really really shy back then anyways, so I would probably be way too scared to even talk to her..I would have especially been shy because she's quite the looker. Seriously! I'm surprised she digs me so much..She must have really bad taste. HA! Just kidding =)
Well, this girl actually found my Myspace and tried adding me..but I didn't add her at first (I DIDN'T deny her, thank goodness) because I didn't even think she'd be into me..She lives like 5 minutes away from me, by the way so It's nothing long distance (we all know how those go..I posted a pretty big blog describing the outcome of one of those). I saw that she was friends with kind of bro-ish dudes, so I just figured "okay, well I seriously don't think she'd be into me..and I'm done talking to random girls on Myspace. It just leads to trouble.)
Well, obviously I was wrong. I asked a few people about her, since she knew some of my friends, and they said she's awesome..So I finally added her, and started talking to her...not right away though; like I said, I didn't think she'd even be into me. Turns out I was wrong AGAIN! To put things in short, we started talking and eventually she gave me her number (SCORE!) and we started texting back and forth (how cliche, right?) She then tells me about how we met years ago, and how she thought I was attractive back then..Too bad I can't even remember where we met..I seriously do feel like I've seen her around before.
About a month ago, I was at Chucky Cheese (I actually remember this) and she said I got "even hotter" since I cut my hair. So, we eventually meet up and hit it off pretty good..I'm trying to take this slow though, because I really care about this girl and don't want to mess anything up. Hopefully I'll see her today. I miss her.
I've noticed that when I talk about women, I just ramble on for days..But this girl is actually awesome though, so I have faith in her =).
I gotta clean up. I'll be back in 2 months. HA!
Monday, July 27, 2009
Update
As of late, I've just been staying inside and hanging out with friends as much as I can, since I'm going to be pretty busy when I go back to RCC. Speaking of RCC, I was supposed to get a job there (supposedly it was "guaranteed"..) but I got denied for the only job available to me. I saw that coming.
I've been pretty lonely lately. I was talking with two people before, but alas, whenever I wanted to talk on my time, they weren't around. Why do people insist on talking to me if they're going to end up just doing that? I don't understand at all. First you say I'm amazing and gorgeous and then a day later I'm nothing?
I'm not too open about my ventures (with relationships), but everyone says "Well, you don't try enough". The problem is, I really do attempt (I hate using the word "try", because I don't need to be in a relationship..I just want one really bad) to make these happen, but it always (ALWAYS) goes wrong.
I'm just sick of being alone and not having any support for anything.
I've been pretty lonely lately. I was talking with two people before, but alas, whenever I wanted to talk on my time, they weren't around. Why do people insist on talking to me if they're going to end up just doing that? I don't understand at all. First you say I'm amazing and gorgeous and then a day later I'm nothing?
I'm not too open about my ventures (with relationships), but everyone says "Well, you don't try enough". The problem is, I really do attempt (I hate using the word "try", because I don't need to be in a relationship..I just want one really bad) to make these happen, but it always (ALWAYS) goes wrong.
I'm just sick of being alone and not having any support for anything.
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