I'm tired of:
Unnecessary shit talking from people in this household
Not having stability
Feeling lonely
Not being able to pursue what I so badly want to do with my life
Having a foul mouth
...I have a lot more, but I would feel like I'm emphasizing too much if I listed every single thing that's bothering me right now.
Things need to change. I'm trying my hardest to be as nice as possible, but it's hard to do when you have so much unnecessary BS filling your mind.
I'm going to overcome all this and accomplish my goals. I will be a singer and get out of this town. I'm dead set on it.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Oh, please.
It's been awhile since I've posted anything here..I just really haven't found the time and patience to type up anything worthwhile.
So I'm 20 now. My Birthday was okay. The week of my Birthday wasn't. I was just let down a lot, to say the least. I saw Depeche Mode in Hollywood for free though. Twas amazing. I had an awesome dinner at some Sushi Restaurant.
School has been..School, if that means anything. I'm not enjoying my classes, but I only have a few more weeks until the Spring session is over. I've been trying to write a 3 page paper about Salvador Dali. I'm just starting on the 3rd page..I'm glad I'm almost done with it because I was flipping out at first.
Relationships..Hmmm...
I would highly suggest never talking to anyone who lives out of state on myspace, or over any sort of communication. I'm typing this out because I was talking with someone for about 2 months or so over myspace. I admit, we had attraction to each other, but to me it was merely a friendship. I figured if I ever met this person, the farthest my relationship would go with her would to go on a date. At first our long distance friendship was going alright until one of her ex's started flipping out because he wanted her back and I was keeping that from happening (I guess?).
So she eventually "severs ties" with the said ex and tells me of all these awful promiscuous things that he's done. Typical scenario, right? Fast forward about a month later, and my "friend" says that someone "took her pictures from her"..(At first I was thinking "What Kind of Pictures?")and that she was extremely upset.
I tried talking to her over the next two days, but alas, I received no responses whatsoever. On Friday night, after numerous calls and texts and a message regarding my concern, she finally answers. In short words, she said that she is accusing me of "leaking" her photos and that she would try getting me in legal trouble (HA!).. This all came off as very bogus to me, because her "resources" were all irrelevant and the person who was "dictating" to her was none other than..You guessed it! Her EX!!!
Okay, now I'm going to be realistic and admit that I lied about one thing (and I'll say it, just because I don't care: I found her though a website community. Such a big deal, right? I told her I found her over a myspace page that was almost partaking to the same thing that the website was. Wow, right?), and I feel bad about that. But for someone that I once called a "friend" to tell me she's going to attempt to get me in legal trouble? At first, these words scared me, because there were about 3 people or so pointing their fingers at me for something I didn't even do.. I actually did some research and found out WHERE her pictures were posted. Her sources and claims were all stupid and irrelevant due to the fact that the post was made almost an entire month before I started talking to her. The blogspot where her pictures were posted was published February 24 2009..I started talking with her Mar 31, 2009..It all adds up sooooooooo well, right?
But really now, the places where her pictures were, were just her MYSPACE (and maybe facebook) pictures. I actually believe there's a user agreement on Myspace once you register, that says you're pictures are open to the public(or your friends). This person also had a STICKAM..Okay now..What do you expect to happen if you add everyone who requests you on myspace and take videos of yourself on stickam in a low cut shirt? And no, none of her Stickam stuff was in the said posts.
But really now. She was the one who posted these photos in the first place. The posts of her on the blog were made before I even knew who she was. It all doesn't add up. Like I said, at first I was scared out of those big bad words she told me, but now I just see it as an empty threat..She doesn't know who EXACTLY posted them, so she turns and points her finger at me because I made one little mistake (a little white lie, if that's a better word).
I realize that was a pretty long explanation of everything, but I figure I might as well type it all out for everyone to see since I really don't care anymore. I hope it all dies down, but If I get someone e-mailing me due to this girls drama then I can just copy this (THE TRUTH) and send it to the said person. Hopefully I won't have to do that though. It just sucks because I had to delete my facebook because of this mess (someone she knew was lurking it..not cool). I used my facebook to talk to my relatives.
So anyways, I guess I learned a valuable lesson. It was dumb for me to talk to (and get close) someone who doesn't even live where I do. I gave into temptation, I guess. Now I know why the sailors would get the "Mans Ruin" tattoos with the pretty ladies adorning them..I'll be honest, I knew why they did that before this happened! Haha!
Time to eat. I'm O U T.
PS: I just remembered the girl told me she was almost kidnapped. If I was behind ALL of this like she's accusing me, then wouldn't someone have contacted me already? I didn't realize I was such an "Evil Mastermind".. Good shit. Pathological liars are for the birds.
So I'm 20 now. My Birthday was okay. The week of my Birthday wasn't. I was just let down a lot, to say the least. I saw Depeche Mode in Hollywood for free though. Twas amazing. I had an awesome dinner at some Sushi Restaurant.
School has been..School, if that means anything. I'm not enjoying my classes, but I only have a few more weeks until the Spring session is over. I've been trying to write a 3 page paper about Salvador Dali. I'm just starting on the 3rd page..I'm glad I'm almost done with it because I was flipping out at first.
Relationships..Hmmm...
I would highly suggest never talking to anyone who lives out of state on myspace, or over any sort of communication. I'm typing this out because I was talking with someone for about 2 months or so over myspace. I admit, we had attraction to each other, but to me it was merely a friendship. I figured if I ever met this person, the farthest my relationship would go with her would to go on a date. At first our long distance friendship was going alright until one of her ex's started flipping out because he wanted her back and I was keeping that from happening (I guess?).
So she eventually "severs ties" with the said ex and tells me of all these awful promiscuous things that he's done. Typical scenario, right? Fast forward about a month later, and my "friend" says that someone "took her pictures from her"..(At first I was thinking "What Kind of Pictures?")and that she was extremely upset.
I tried talking to her over the next two days, but alas, I received no responses whatsoever. On Friday night, after numerous calls and texts and a message regarding my concern, she finally answers. In short words, she said that she is accusing me of "leaking" her photos and that she would try getting me in legal trouble (HA!).. This all came off as very bogus to me, because her "resources" were all irrelevant and the person who was "dictating" to her was none other than..You guessed it! Her EX!!!
Okay, now I'm going to be realistic and admit that I lied about one thing (and I'll say it, just because I don't care: I found her though a website community. Such a big deal, right? I told her I found her over a myspace page that was almost partaking to the same thing that the website was. Wow, right?), and I feel bad about that. But for someone that I once called a "friend" to tell me she's going to attempt to get me in legal trouble? At first, these words scared me, because there were about 3 people or so pointing their fingers at me for something I didn't even do.. I actually did some research and found out WHERE her pictures were posted. Her sources and claims were all stupid and irrelevant due to the fact that the post was made almost an entire month before I started talking to her. The blogspot where her pictures were posted was published February 24 2009..I started talking with her Mar 31, 2009..It all adds up sooooooooo well, right?
But really now, the places where her pictures were, were just her MYSPACE (and maybe facebook) pictures. I actually believe there's a user agreement on Myspace once you register, that says you're pictures are open to the public(or your friends). This person also had a STICKAM..Okay now..What do you expect to happen if you add everyone who requests you on myspace and take videos of yourself on stickam in a low cut shirt? And no, none of her Stickam stuff was in the said posts.
But really now. She was the one who posted these photos in the first place. The posts of her on the blog were made before I even knew who she was. It all doesn't add up. Like I said, at first I was scared out of those big bad words she told me, but now I just see it as an empty threat..She doesn't know who EXACTLY posted them, so she turns and points her finger at me because I made one little mistake (a little white lie, if that's a better word).
I realize that was a pretty long explanation of everything, but I figure I might as well type it all out for everyone to see since I really don't care anymore. I hope it all dies down, but If I get someone e-mailing me due to this girls drama then I can just copy this (THE TRUTH) and send it to the said person. Hopefully I won't have to do that though. It just sucks because I had to delete my facebook because of this mess (someone she knew was lurking it..not cool). I used my facebook to talk to my relatives.
So anyways, I guess I learned a valuable lesson. It was dumb for me to talk to (and get close) someone who doesn't even live where I do. I gave into temptation, I guess. Now I know why the sailors would get the "Mans Ruin" tattoos with the pretty ladies adorning them..I'll be honest, I knew why they did that before this happened! Haha!
Time to eat. I'm O U T.
PS: I just remembered the girl told me she was almost kidnapped. If I was behind ALL of this like she's accusing me, then wouldn't someone have contacted me already? I didn't realize I was such an "Evil Mastermind".. Good shit. Pathological liars are for the birds.
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