Update

As of late, I've just been staying inside and hanging out with friends as much as I can, since I'm going to be pretty busy when I go back to RCC. Speaking of RCC, I was supposed to get a job there (supposedly it was "guaranteed"..) but I got denied for the only job available to me. I saw that coming.

I've been pretty lonely lately. I was talking with two people before, but alas, whenever I wanted to talk on my time, they weren't around. Why do people insist on talking to me if they're going to end up just doing that? I don't understand at all. First you say I'm amazing and gorgeous and then a day later I'm nothing?

I'm not too open about my ventures (with relationships), but everyone says "Well, you don't try enough". The problem is, I really do attempt (I hate using the word "try", because I don't need to be in a relationship..I just want one really bad) to make these happen, but it always (ALWAYS) goes wrong.

I'm just sick of being alone and not having any support for anything.