GED

I took my final test yesteday (for Math). I'm praying I passed. If I did then I can start getting things on track.

Jim from Inkaholics got my email. He said he's going to start drawing out all the stuff tonight. I'm freaking excited!

Sorry

I know it's been a few days since I last updated this.
There really hasn't been too much up on my end..
I did, however go out to talk with Jim (from Inkaholics) in Moreno Valley about my sleeve. I was hoping to put some money down on the sleeve, but he told me to wait it off and send him an email with some pictures so he could have a better idea "Visualizing" what I really want. I sent him the email last saturday, and he still hasn't gotten back to me, which is kind of aggrivating because I really, really want to start on this.

Targets been ok. One of the Leads that wasn't really nice to me is transferring, which is good. We've gotten a new one already. I haven't met him yet, but he's fairly new (I guess), so he quiet possibly might be nicer than the last one.
Speaking of my job; I really need to get the 30th and 31st off (well atleast during the daytime). I'm seeing The Damned, and the Adolescents on the 30th in Anaheim (Which should be amazing), and I missed last Halloween due to the flakyness of a "Friend".

I'm taking my GED math test next week.. I'm scared, but I have confidence that I might pass. Hopefully I will. I've been at this for almost a year.
I've got to get ready now.
I'll be back....X

Ups and Downs

I might get fired already from Target. Apparently, I'm "Too Slow" as a Cashier. I don't feel like I'm "Slacking Off", or "Being Lazy", Because It took me about..7 months to get hired somewhere..So why would I not take it seriously.

However, I've met this one Team Leader who's a major A-Hole. I don't even think he's in charge of the cashiers. I seriously can't stand him, and I've actually already reported him for his BS antics. I'm usually pretty easy to get along with, but I won't stand for being treated as if I'm "Worthless" or "Insignificant".

I figure, If I stay at Target, cool. If I get fired, cool, because I won't have to deal with being treated like crap.

It just sucks because I'd be in a struggle again..unless somehow more jobs would suddenly start hiring. The economy is crap right now though, so a lot of jobs hiring doesn't seem like a reality right now.

I'm pissed at my "Friend". My "Friend" gossiped about someone, yet he/she goes and hangs out with this person. I called (let's just say...) "Lucy" out on this once, and she said "Oh, I've only said one thing about him once. He's a great friend, and If you want to argue, then I will seriously humiliate you infront of your friends." .
Funny, isn't it?
"Lucy", does this all the time. It will usually be a weekend when everyones free and wants to chill, but she'll invite this guy over all the time.
I used to be friends with him, but he started acting like a little kid. He actually had this thing, where he would kick me as I would walk. I believe he's 23 or so..

So now I have to try to find something to do. These past few weekends have been crap because of "Lucy".

Word.

ehh

Theres this one guy at Target I Really dislike. Today was too much. If it keeps up then I'm going to start looking for another job. I won't stand to mistreated the way I was today. Hopefully the next paycheck will be better. Last weeks one really sucked.. I had to take out money from my savings to pay my phone bill. Fun stuff. I want to start on my sleeve already, dangit!!!!

I worry too much...

I meant to update my blog on Friday..or Monday, but I just haven't really found time to. This majority of this week wasn't too good. One of Sams (as well as my) friends came over last Saturday and just randomly started talking about "The Large Hadron Collider" and "2012"..I generally don't like talking about Apocolyptic things, whether I believe in what the person is saying or not. I get in long "funks" and get stressed out, worried and very depressed.

I couldn't really get the "Atom Smasher" off my mind at first. The thought of things like that just make me scared..However, I prayed about it and eventually I got it off my mind. My Dad and Grandpa helped me out too. I can honestly talk to those two about anything (It's a shame my Grandpa doesn't really like my Dad).

Let's change the subject for a minute or so. My "Training Day" at Target was so-so (slightly leaning towards..bad), because my car battery died right before I was supposed to go in..Fun stuff. I quickly called the store and told them the deal. They didn't sound too upset (And I really hope they weren't), but it just sucked because it was my first day of..actually being a cashier (even if it was only for about 30-45 minutes). I feel blessed to have gotten nice people in my line. I'm really slow, and I pray that I'll speed up. I'm kind of curious to why I'm not supposed to go back until the 21st though.. I guess it's kind of good in a way, because I can have a little bit more time to get new brake pads (for my car) and hopefully set up my appointment for my sleeve with Jim (from Inkaholics).

Okay, let's change subjects again.

A friend of mine Instant messaged me about an hour ago asking me "How I've been". I told him that the start of my week was lame, but that "I'm feeling better now". I told him that "I shouldn't have been stressing out, about all this "End of the World BS", because no one knows when the world will end." Which is absolutely true. I honestly see the "End" as a mixture between Pollution and the thing's that the Bible pointed out..But then again..we still don't know WHEN it's going to happen. He started talking about a "Comet" that's supposed to hit the earth and poison 3/4's of the water. I've honestly never heard of that. Maybe it's something I missed? (I'm not being sarcastic at all). So all in all, the "Worries" just came back.

I honestly hate talking about it. I mean sure, I might sound selfish when I say "I don't think too many of us have lived out our lives yet", but I know that's how most people would feel. We all have dreams we want to catch, right?

Anyways..I think I'm going to read some "Narnia" then go to sleep. I need to get my sleeping hours back on track.


Ps.

5 Years ago on the 12th, A great great man was called home..This man was Johnny Cash. I wanted to do something in rememberance of him. However, a friend of mine just told me to "Live my Life". That's what I'm trying to do. I can't wait to meet you one day Johnny. Give my Mom and everyone else a high five for me.

Orientation

So today was my first day in Red and Kahki. Orientation freaking sucked..It was waay longer and a lot worse that I thought it was going to be. I guess it's cool I made around $40 today, but it was just soo lame...and I was holding my piss for about 2 1/2 hours. Fun. I go back on Friday. I know one single person there, which is good. Hopefully this won't suck too bad.

1 Week

Until things get better. On another note, I've decided to cut my "Christian" friends out of my life. Why? I'm sick of the fake image they live behind. When is it okay to say "I'm your brother" and "I love you" and "I'll be there for you all the time" and then turn around and totally go against what they say?

What's even worse is that they say "The Bible says that we as humans cannot be depended upon, only God"....Is it me, or is that Blasphemous? Using God to shield yourself because you know that your a selfish asshole..That's really Christian.